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24 December 2008 @ 08:10 am

When did I start hating you? Was it yesterday? This morning perhaps? When I was twelve? Before that? I don’t remember. But if it had been all those years ago, I’m glad I remember that I hate you now. I understand that no one gives you a manual for raising kids. But I’m pretty sure rule of thumb is that you odn’t treat them like shit. I’m pretty sure you don’t drive them to the point of undeniable hatred for you. I’m sure you’re not supposed to push them into a spiral of self loathing and depression.

I don’t ever wanna be like you. Ever. If honoring you means living a longer life then I hope I die today. Because I’d rather burn in hell than ever let you be what you’re supposed to be to me. A mother. A fucking mother. One of the greatest things to be. And you’ve tainted the title with your actions. You’re not worthy of the name. Not anymore.

I’m going to succeed just to spite you. I’m gonna do it just to piss you off, and I’m gonna do it my way. Just so that you can’t take credit for it like you did everything else. And in the end, when people ask what drove me to be what I am, I’ll say ‘that bitch of a woman that made the mistake of bringing me into this world’. 

I hope everything in life goes well for you. I hope you get that promotion, that you get remarried and that everyone on the outside looking in think that you’re happy. But the truth will be that no one will see how fucked up you really are. How much you’re screwed up.

Three generations is enough. I refuse to continue the cycle of fucking up kids like you did and like your mom did before you. I REFUSE. IT STOPS WITH ME. I don’t give a fuck about your approval. You mean nothing to me now.

I hope you rot in the darkest corner of hell. You deserve it.

29 October 2008 @ 02:22 am
I know. I know. This post is late. I have my reasons though. Not having access to a computer, being one of them. But anyway.



I love you. You are made of awesome. You are one of the sweetest people I have ever met. You are one of the best people I know. You are brilliant, and don't forget that, no matter what anyone tells you.


*hugs* Sorry about not being on again:( Love you!

Location: Here
Mood: happyhappy
28 October 2008 @ 08:47 pm
It's probably already Wednesday over there.

I send my belated birthday wishes, Lil!  I hope you HAD a happy birthday!


P.S. Oh yes, no birthday post is a birthday post without the sentimental crap.  So here it is: Lil, you are the absolute sweetest.  You're like those strawberry-flavored (they're the sweetest) twizzle sticks.  And by that I mean you don't just look sweet, you ARE sweet.  Let me define sweet: caring, charming, and all-around wonderful.  So... yes.  That is the sentimental crap bit.  

*hugs* yet again!
Mood: anxiousanxious
28 October 2008 @ 12:27 pm

Exactly 16 years ago...
Ah, screw the dramatic shit. Today dudettes, it's Lillypad's birthday:D Sweet 16... You old woman.
It won't be long until you'll go pinch innocent children in their cheeks and make them listen to your unbelievably long and boring stories of your youth. Hopefully though, me and the rest of the Wendy Bunch will be in some of them. I love you so much Lilly, and the time we spent in London was some of the best days in my life. You're so special and don't ever let anyone ever tell you something different. Don't ever let anyone tell you you're worth less. Just think of me and imagine what I'd say, because I love you, and to me, you're worth everything.

Have a happy birthday, and an even happier coming year, I love you Silly.


Mood: sick:(
Music: Beat it, no actually, the song
20 October 2008 @ 12:01 pm
*clears throat* Ok, you know that I love you very much. You...I consider you to be my little sister. And even though I'm 'protective' of you, you do so much for me. When I'm having a bad day I get a textmail from you...even if you sent me the message hours ago. You put a smile on my face and I have so many memories of us being crazy. The thought of you makes me grateful that we met and I will never ever regret the time we share.

During the hiatus was kinda hard for you because it became so normal for us to spend all day/night talking to each other. I know you felt like I had abandoned you. Heather, that will never EVER happen. You are one of the most important people in my life, RL or here. Never doubt your importance to all of us, not just me. Because if not for you, honestly, there would be no Wendy Bunch. You brought us all together and whether you know it or not you keep us together. And we thank and love you for that. I don't think we say it enough.

SO *cough* I hope you had a good day ma'am. Many more to come.
Location: Here with you
Music: Nude - Radiohead
20 October 2008 @ 05:13 pm
*clears throat and sings* Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Heather! Happy birthday to you!

I hope you have a great day, and the spanish test didn't ruin it that much! You are awesome, and I love you so much! :*blushes*

Love you! *hugs*

*goes back on hiatus*

14 October 2008 @ 07:47 am

I would sing for you, but I'd make your ears bleed.
Lani, you are one of the nicest, funniest and sweetest (yes, you are) people I have ever met. You always seem to know when I am bothered about something and you'll listen, without judging. I love you for that. I'm not good at writing my feelings, even if it is about another person so I'll just say one more thing: I love you.


Love you! *hugs*

25 September 2008 @ 11:03 pm

Hey guys, i just read on TV.com that they're organizing a huge "Blackout day" for September the 30th,so that they'll notice us and change the website from it current annoyingness.:D so the night before, log out of your account, and DON'T TOUCH TV.COM  ALL DAY ON THE 30TH!!!!!
Mood: tiredtired
Music: A Little Les 16 Candles, A Little More Touch Me
24 September 2008 @ 07:28 pm
OMG you guys! So yeah, I'm really supposed to be packing right now! BECAUSE OMG, I AM GOING TO SEE LILLY TOMORROW! I need to go to bed soon, even though it's like 7.30pm, because I have to wake up at 3am:| I'll probably won't be able to sleep anyway so I can stay up:P But I just wanted to say that I, well we, won't be on much these next few days...

I love you all so much, and I'll miss you:( *hugs*

Music: Mum's weird ass music